Hello!!! Im so happy to be back in Shreveport!!Things are going good!! I got a message from the Coxs yesterday theyre going to Ireland today, they stay on the go, i like that !!Ive beenhere a week, i would like to get a job but i know its gonna ba hard. Went to the casino the other day and won a hundred dollas, had fun. Well not much else going on more later!!

Well i am now in Shreveport La. I havent had a computer for a long time i missed blogging. I havent heard from the coxs:(Ive been here just a day, I am exited about being here. But i didnt even tell my ex i was leaving feelin a lil guilty bout that.Were going out tonight cuz hes got to play pool, i cant remeber the last time ive beeen out.

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today was a good day. I cleaned the house, went to the pool, chatted with matthew:)and me and my baby are getting along! I still wish id get a call bout a job!!! That would help me more than anything else!!Talked to my mom i dont know how she does it with soooooooo many kids!Even us grown ones worry her, i try to call her everyday so she dont worry!I miss her!!:( i miss my dad too!!!I was looking trough my photos and i have his drivers liscence, i wish i would have "viewed" him!Still dont know whats gonna happen to the house, we have to come together on that and it dont seem like anyone wants to do anything about it.Its driving me crazy!! But today was a good day!!!

Went to the pool, wrote a letter to an old friend, and been on the computer all day. I feel so much better today, I guess my bi polar took the day off:) Seriously its hard being bi polar some days are better than others! But i wouldnt change me for the world. I still havent heard anything about a job but when the time is right itl come.I have been very energetic today, happy,and would like to share it with everyone else!!!!

joyce charlene hawkins

joyce charlene hawkins: "About" I am a 31 year old woman in a relationshp. I have 5 kids from a previous marriage. I am currently unemployed. I ove to be on the computer,love playin bejeweled blitz on facebook. Love bebo like to be able to make playlists kinda like my space. Iam a leo. I have very few friends, looking for some!! I dont get out alot,but i am very personable.I have been looking for aa job forever, no such luck!I love TI and most rap music r&b is cool too. I spend my days on the computer or at the pool.MOSTLY ON THE COMPUTER!!

its a great day

Things seem to be going better! Im sittin here listenin to TI always makes me feel better!!Ive decieded to let go and let GOD deal with it (as ti says) I kept triying to make things go my way and then got mad when they didnt,things arent always gonna go my way. And i guess i wanted everything to be perfect and thats not going to happen either! But i hace to be happy with myself first and i wasnt, i am now. Hopefully ill get a job before too long.Thatll help me alot,i hate sittin in this apartment all daay long,itll drive you crazy!!

Im so tired but i cant sleep.Its been a very stressful week.I am confused about alot of things and really have no one to talk to about it.But i know i have to deal with some things no one could help me with.