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today was a good day. I cleaned the house, went to the pool, chatted with matthew:)and me and my baby are getting along! I still wish id get a call bout a job!!! That would help me more than anything else!!Talked to my mom i dont know how she does it with soooooooo many kids!Even us grown ones worry her, i try to call her everyday so she dont worry!I miss her!!:( i miss my dad too!!!I was looking trough my photos and i have his drivers liscence, i wish i would have "viewed" him!Still dont know whats gonna happen to the house, we have to come together on that and it dont seem like anyone wants to do anything about it.Its driving me crazy!! But today was a good day!!!

Went to the pool, wrote a letter to an old friend, and been on the computer all day. I feel so much better today, I guess my bi polar took the day off:) Seriously its hard being bi polar some days are better than others! But i wouldnt change me for the world. I still havent heard anything about a job but when the time is right itl come.I have been very energetic today, happy,and would like to share it with everyone else!!!!

joyce charlene hawkins

joyce charlene hawkins: "About" I am a 31 year old woman in a relationshp. I have 5 kids from a previous marriage. I am currently unemployed. I ove to be on the computer,love playin bejeweled blitz on facebook. Love bebo like to be able to make playlists kinda like my space. Iam a leo. I have very few friends, looking for some!! I dont get out alot,but i am very personable.I have been looking for aa job forever, no such luck!I love TI and most rap music r&b is cool too. I spend my days on the computer or at the pool.MOSTLY ON THE COMPUTER!!

its a great day

Things seem to be going better! Im sittin here listenin to TI always makes me feel better!!Ive decieded to let go and let GOD deal with it (as ti says) I kept triying to make things go my way and then got mad when they didnt,things arent always gonna go my way. And i guess i wanted everything to be perfect and thats not going to happen either! But i hace to be happy with myself first and i wasnt, i am now. Hopefully ill get a job before too long.Thatll help me alot,i hate sittin in this apartment all daay long,itll drive you crazy!!

Im so tired but i cant sleep.Its been a very stressful week.I am confused about alot of things and really have no one to talk to about it.But i know i have to deal with some things no one could help me with.

Today has been a good day,didnt really do much but i am feeling better.I love my boyfriend and i am nw sure i did the right thing. I have heard from the coxs which makes me feel better. I talked to my mom and even though things there are crazy everone is okay. I miss my dad still, i was thinkin about him earlier but i know hes in a better place!Hopefully Ill get a job before too long HOPEFULY!

Well i am back from Arkansas. I have been very confused as to what to do with my life.Unsure if staying with my boyfriend is the right thing to do. I love him very much but im afraid i am not the woman he needs or wants. I have not heard from the coxs, that worries me, i ws hopin for some photos from thier trip.I have applied for a jb as a wairess, i thought they would have called me by now, but no such luck.My mom is stressed out. Even michelle is stressin her.I wish there was something i could do for her!!I hope she doesnt drive herself crazy worrin about everything. She needs some kind of help i just dont know what. Well it doesnt lok like ill be able to go back to school not enough money:( But something should come up i mean ive been looking for a job forever!Well i got to call mom back have a good day!

Wel i am home,i dont think its a good thing. My bfriend has been an ass. Im ready to go again!! I can onl take so much!!Im too old for some of the shit that he pulls! I mis my mom and siblings!!!!!!!!!It was so nice to see them! I havent heard for the coxs im ettin worried. It was a nice visit !!cant wait til the next one!! well more later!!

Well i am going home tomorrow, i wont get there until monday. my boyfriend has said saome terrible things to me since ive been here. I think i may just go get my stuff and leave i dont need this mess! I miss the coxs thier vack from thier trip but i havent got to talk to them yet:( It was nice to visit my family!! I have missed them sooooooooooo much!! Lots has gone on here since i ve been here!!But im ready to get back to texas!!Where ever i go!!I am very upset right now but ill get over it i always do!!

heyyall im still in arkansas im lovin it here. I have missed my mom and sisters and brother sooooooooooooooo much!!! Its been 16 years since ive seen them. I miss my boyfriend so much. I love him so much he is so good to me!!!!!!! I cant wait to see him again.Its nice down here we went fishin didnt catch anything but it was fun!! morelater.................

I am here in Arkansas and im loving it. It was a 24 hour bus ride but it was worth it!!Its hot out here too. I miss the cox's,they're in Ireland so no net for them. I cant wait to take some photos but i just barly woke up i got all week gonna have to get another camera!!Well im gonna get back to my family.

Well its bout 1pm havent done nuthin today, nuthin to do!!Ihave a drs app in a couple of hours. Ineed to really tslk to him. Im going to visit my sis this week. Im not sure ive got to call to station and see when the bus leaves and arrives. And i need to pack and figure out what im going to take. I wont be able to talk to my boyfriend. But it should be nice to see my mom and sis. All my sisters and brother. Well i got stuff to do , i wont be online while im there.